Can't Complain.

I don't think I ever have had the right, nor will I ever have the right to complain about my life. I feel spoiled. This is the view from my friend Amber's house. She lives down in Encintas, across the street from an amazing view! I like the area a lot, and love the location where I lay my head down to sleep.

I'm looking for jobs down here right now. Its not easy. Its kinda hard to believe that that the country I live in is in an economic crisis. I see people spending money everywhere, living in huge houses, living lavishly... It often feels like there could be no problems anywhere I go. The sad truth of it is that extreme poverty is mixed right in with the extreme wealth. People are having hard times finding jobs, especially people that can't even afford to have a roof over there head. Its like mixing third world with out of this world rich. I don't understand it at all. I don't think I ever will. And its right outside your door step.

I had an interview with a company this week. I could have taken the job.. I could have sold office supplies, could have made decent money doing it. But, I would rather keep my focus on living a life that I enjoy, because I only get to do this once.

If people only did respect the idea that they only have one chance to do it, and do it right, how much different would things in this world be? I think that the role we all play is so messed up now that millions of people have no idea what or why they do what they do, they just do it cause the system tells them to. Whatever happened to growing your own crops so that a meal is provided? Now its all lost in wanting to make money so that your level of entertainment is greater than that of your neighbors. People don't live in family's, that would be considered dependant. Now in order to achieve prosperity you have to be independent, on your own, striving to make a wage that can keep you alive, or just well entertained.

I don't like seeing it this way. I like the idea of a pack. A group of people pushing forward to achieve a greater goal. Solo isn't for me. When someone in the pack(family) starts to fall behind instead of leaving them there, pull them up. Give that helping hand. How much stronger of a nation would we be if we operated in that way. Each person does there part to put food on the table, a roof over their heads, and a safe place to find solitude when needed.

I don't feel like man kind will ever again be a great race. I don't feel like a tribe will prosper. We have destroyed the ideals that we once lived by. We are weaker because we are singles. It is the degrading of the human race.

It is a thought that's been with me for a few weeks now. I want to see my friends and I do great things with our lives. I don't care if I ever make a dollar again. I just want to change one life at a time. Help someone realize that life is priceless, not the things we have made. I want people to know that no matter what, all I have is my body. The bank can repossess a house, a car, anything.. but they can't take your body from you, they can't take your mind. Keep those things safe, keep them healthy, it's all you really have.

oh yeah... my family has been awesome. They have been sending me love and support, both of which i need. Thank you fam! I guess this is just more dirrected to some comments I've been hearing a lot latey. ie. "don't trust anyone but yourself", " you can't count on anyone but yourself", "i'm gunna watch out for the number one right now".... Seems a bit selfish to me. I'm not into it.

thanks! and much peace.

nathaniel